This speaks to me.
Upon graduation, I was bursting with the energy to do something new, something different. GO OUT TO THE WORLD AND MAKE SOMETHING OF YOURSELF.
Then reality set in and the working world is bat shit cray. And I wished I was sprawled o my couch making NOTHING of myself.
But then, I also realised that I have discovered something about myself. The kind of director I want to become, having worked with a few already and what kind of TV work I want to do in the future. It’s so overwhelming at times to learn these thing about yourself. Thinking you can’t do something, but then, you do it.
Essentially, it’s a one year contract. And that contract will end. And I can start fresh somewhere new if I still don’t find my place here.
So as much as I want to be sprawled on the couch, I’m learning, fast (too fast sometimes) and what’s better than learning, really? Bat shit cray, yes. But I’m glad I tried something before I was ready. Now, I know better.