I’ve been feeling very sentimental lately.
A lot of grown up thoughts and I just feel so different. I’m not jaded by the working world, but at the same time, I’m learning so much about myself.
I talked to my sister the other day and she talked about how her friends were not helpful to her when she was on a long MC. And I told her to show them the middle finger and get them the fuck out of her life.
When you are young, you think you need all these friends, and all these outings, and all this “social life”, but really, when it comes down to the shitty time, you’re family is all you’ve got. Your dad will be the one who drives you to school, your mum makes sure you’re well fed, your siblings keep your spirits up.
You don’t need 10 million friends. You need only ONE.
One to change the meaning of friendship. One to help you understand how to be a friend to others. Mun Ling taught me that. I was so obsessed about fitting in, and being cool, I was not myself. Then she came along and we’ve been best friends ever since. She is such a breath of fresh air, every time I’m with her. We are SO different and yet we get along so well. We understand each other, she doesn’t judge me for the things I say and how I am. One is all you need, girl. One best friend. Then the rest of the other bitches can go where they belong, BEHIND you.
But I also learn about the work place. It’s not like school and yet a little like school. People don’t like people, people bitch about other people. People are mean to other people. Then you do have your cliques. And in the office, well, this office, I don’t feel empowered but the people around me. I feel dragged down. I feel heavier.
They don’t lift me up like my friends in school. I feel my creativity and productivity lessen around them. Women don’t empower women. Instead, you tear each other down. I find that so strange. I always try to lift my friends higher. Tell them to do shit they love. And yet, here I am sad.
I live on positive vibes and positive people that I feel this environment is so toxic. I honestly can’t wait to get out of here. I’m running out the door faster than you know.
I feel sad that this is the environment that I live in. And now that more people are leaving, they will be taking the sunshine with them and I’m so afraid of withering and dying.
I need some positivi-tea.